on her hips, and shattered Sarahâs world with a single sentence. âIâm Mrs. Charles Langstreet the Third,â she said, the words slicing through Sarah with the stinging force of a sharp sword.
Then, as now, Sarah had been unable to stand. Sheâd dropped into a chair, blind with confusion, pain and fear. Unconsciously, sheâd rested a hand on her abdomen.
âPack your things, dear,â Mrs. Langstreet had said. âAs of tomorrow morning, you wonât be living here any longer. A backstreet whore belongs, you see, on a backstreet. If Charles wants to continue this dalliance, thatâs his business, but I wonât be footing the bill.â
With that, sheâd gone, leaving the suite door standing open to the hall beyond.
Sarah had been too numb to move at first. She simply sat, waiting for Charles to come and say it was all a mistake. That she, Sarah, would be the only Mrs. Charles Langstreet the Third.
All day she waited.
But he didnât come.
Sarah had finally closed the door, gone to bed and lain staring up at the ceiling throughout the very long night to come.
In the morning, a tentative knock sent a surge of hope rushing through her. She rushed to the door, opened it to find, not a smiling Charles, with a credible explanation at the ready, but one of the hotelâs porters. The fellow stood in the corridor, clearly uncomfortable.
Heâd offered an anxious smile as two maids and another porter collected themselves behind him. âIâm sorry to hear youâre leaving us,â heâd said. âMrs. Langstreet asked that we help you gather your belongings. Thereâll be a carriage waiting to take you to your new residence at ten oâclock.â
Sarah had not protested.
Sheâd simply watched, stricken, as her clothes were folded into trunks and boxes, her books taken from the shelves, her jewelry stuffed into valises Marjory Langstreet had evidently provided for the purpose.
By noon, sheâd been settled in a seedy rooming house, one door of her tiny room opening onto a rat-infested alley.
And still there had been no word, no visit, from Charles.
Sarah waited a week, then began pawning jewelry, a piece at a time, to buy food. Twice, she wrote long letters to her unsuspecting father, telling the shattering truth, but sheâd never mailed them.
She was too ashamed.
Too heartbroken.
Several times, when hunger forced her out into the narrow, filthy streets, sheâd considered standing on the tracks when the trolley came. It would be over, that way.
In the end, she couldnât do that to the baby, or to herself.
She finally sent a wire to her father, reading simply, I am in trouble, and listing her address at the boardinghouse.
Within ten days, heâd arrived, bent on taking her home to Stone Creek. Sheâd told him everything but the name of the man whoâd sired her child, and patently refused to return to Arizona Territory. As much as she yearned for her own room, the sound of her motherâs voice, the soothing touch of her hand, Sarah simply hadnât been able to face the inevitable gossip and speculation.
Resigned, Ephriam had enrolled her in another college, a small, private one where secrets were kept, and moved her into the dormitory.
She hadnât seen Charles again until a week before Owenâs birth, in the college infirmary. They met in the library, Charles and Sarah and Charlesâs lawyer. Charles had stiffly informed her that he meant to raise the child as a legitimate heir, with Marjory listed as the legal mother.
Sarah had had no choice but to comply.
Sheâd long since sold the last of her jewelry, her rich clothes and the books. Even the Chinese fan. And sheâd promised her clearly disenchanted father she would finish college, no matter what.
So when her baby boy was born, sheâd handed him over to Charlesâs lawyer. The loss had been keen, brutal, as though sheâd