âHe thinks the issue is between Brynn and him.â
âThatâs good,â I said. But then I told Sophie I had to go. I didnât want to hear anymore about what Sophie told Billy or what Billy was planning to say to Brynn. It was late. I was wet. And Iâd spent way too much time today on this topic.
Thursday, January 15, 8:08 p.m.
Talked to Emily
Hereâs a little piece of good news: I fixed my problems, at least the ones with the dance team.
There has been so much tension all week. Everyone knows Brynn and I arenât friends anymore, and theyâve all been acting like they had to choose sides. Brynn pretty much had everyone convinced they needed to choose her side, which sucked for me personally, but also has been affecting the group dance the freshman girls have been working on for our next competition.
And I wasnât the only one who thought so. When Ms. Baumann criticized our group and told us our timing was off, I knew it was time to act. I appealed to Emilyâs sense of teamwork. âWhatever problems exist between Brynn and me shouldnât affect the team,â I said at break today. âWe need to all work together if we want to do well.â
Emily, who loves dance even more than drama (which she clearly likes a lot), seemed relieved. âI think so too,â she said. When break was over, she made a speech to our group about how we all need to work together. Everyone agreed to do their part, even Brynn. When we started dancing, she avoided dancing near me or looking in my direction, which made things kind of awkward.
But hey . . . Iâll take awkward over ostracized.
9:17 p.m.
Feeling pretty good
I felt pretty good about what happened in dance, so I decided to call Leo (who I havenât spoken to in a week) and tell him about it. But when I called, he didnât pick up. I hope heâll call back.
11:17 p.m.
Going to sleep
He didnât.
Friday, January 16, 8:13 p.m.
Text from Leo
Leo: Sorry I didnât call you back last night.
Leo: First college test today. I had to study.
Me: No problem!
Me: Hope it went well.
Leo: Me too. Hard to tell.
Leo: Iâll call you this weekend.
Me:
Leo: Is that a smiley face?
Me: Yes.
Leo:
Me:
Saturday, January 16, 10:35 p.m.
Leo didnât call today. That makes it sound like I sat around all day waiting for him to, which I didnât. I did a lot of things (while I was waiting for him to call), including calling Sophie to see if she wanted to do something. She said she was doing something with Billy. She hesitated, then said I could come along too if I wanted. But the way she said it made me feel like she only invited me because she felt like she had to.
Maybe I was imagining things. Maybe I wasnât.
But I didnât go.
Sunday, January 17, 10:02 p.m.
Going to bed
Leo didnât call today either.
But thatâs OK because I would have been too busy to take his call. When I woke up, I made a decision to have a positive, productive day versus a day spent ruminating (vocab word) on the fact that Leo hasnât called back or that Sophie and Billy did something together yesterday and didnât really (at least, in my opinion) want me to come along or that my lifelong (former) best friend has turned into an out-of-control, manipulative stranger.
First, I cleaned out my backpack and went for a run. For breakfast I had waffles, bacon, and orange slices and savored (another vocab word) every bite. Then I helped Dad clean out the garage.
When we were done, I showered, did my Bio homework, and then watched seven episodes of
SpongeBob
with May and June. Thatâs the second-highest number of consecutive episodes Iâve watched of a show I donât like. Since I was consciously being positive, I made a lot of upbeat comments while I was watching it like, âIsnât that stupid sponge funny?â Then I made a scrunched up weird face and told May and June I was trying to imitate