SpongeBob.
May and June found my imitation to be hysterical. They were literally on the floor, laughing. Even Mom commented about how sweet it was to see us laughing and having fun together.
It might seem no human could shove any more positive, productive things into a day, but I did. When we finished watching TV, I asked my sisters if either of them needed any help with their homework. June said she did, so I quizzed her on her spelling words, even though I knew she knew them cold before weâd started.
âCan you believe how fast I learned those?â June asked when weâd gone through the list.
âYouâre a cracker-jack speller,â I said.
âWhat does that mean?â she asked. I told her she should look it up, and then (because I momentarily had forgotten, but quickly remembered that I was being positive), I said she could use my computer to do so. If thatâs not the face of positivity, I donât know what is. Oh, by the way, Leo did not call today.
Oops! Did that sound negative?
11:17 p.m.
Canât sleep
I think todayâs positivity is keeping me awake. So Iâm going to say whatâs really on my mind, and itâs not very positive: thereâs way too much drama in my life and Iâm sick of it.
Iâm sick of Leo saying heâs going to call and not doing it.
Iâm sick of wondering whatâs going to happen between Billy and Sophie. I think I already know whatâs going to happen. But I donât like wondering when they ask me to do something if theyâre asking because they want to or because they feel like they have to.
And Iâm really sick of thinking about Brynn and wondering whatâs going to happen. Will we ever speak again? Will we be enemies throughout high school, and then sometime down the road, like at graduation, finally talk about it, realize it was silly, and make up? Or will it be one of those things where we bump into each other years from now as adults, and say something really lame like, âHey, I remember you. Didnât we used to be friends?â
There you have it.
The girl formerly known as Miss Positivity, is going to sleep.
Just because I donât care doesnât mean I donât understand.
âHomer Simpson
Monday, January 19, 10:02 p.m.
Text from Leo
Leo: Sorry didnât call this weekend.
Leo: I had a lot of studying to do.
Me: A test?
Leo: Two of them this week.
Me: Good luck.
Leo: Thanks
I waited. I thought Leo would write more. I even turned my phone off and on again in case heâd written more and there was some technical glitch with the phone that prevented texts from coming through. But nothing came through, which makes me think I have a problem. Iâm just not sure if itâs a phone problem or a Leo problem.
Actually, Iâm pretty sure.
Tuesday, January 20, 6:17 p.m.
Talked to Sophie
Sophie just called and told me that she was in the bathroom after school today and overheard Kelly Blake and Julia Lozano talking about her. âWhat did they say?â I asked.
âKelly told Julia that Brynn told her Billy called her and said I kissed him at the party on New Yearâs Eve, and that he was shocked when it happened and didnât know what to do. Then she said Brynn said he told her he doesnât like me but he doesnât want to hurt my feelings and that heâs hoping it just dies out.â
It made me mad at Brynn all over again. I donât know exactly what Billy said when he called her, but I know it wasnât that. âYou know Billy didnât say any of that, right?â
Sophie hesitated for a beat too long. I could tell she wasnât sure. âI hope he didnât say it.â
âOf course he didnât,â I said. I knew in her rational mind she had to know that. âDid you say anything to Kelly and Julia?â I asked.
âI was using the bathroom,â said Sophie. âBut anyway, I donât care what