sheâs teaching me how to articulate makes me want to . . . do things I shouldnât be thinking about with a teacher.
Sheâs only in her twenties. If I were a few years older, the age difference wouldnât matter.
âHello, Louie? Are you in there?â Sheâs watching me, waiting for eye contact.
âAbby, if it were another time, Iâd . . .â
She ignores me and hands me the syllable cards. âLetâs plow through this deck and then you can read the ultimate tongue-twister sheet, real fast.â
I get through the syllables and then we laugh as we both read the twisters and try to do a few at the same time. When we finish, Abby hands me a card and hugs me, and my head starts twirling again.
In my mind, Iâm spinning her and itâs only natural that I follow that with a kiss. My stomach is flip-flopping, so I grab her cheeks and plant a wet one on herâand for a split second she responds. But then she shoves me away.
âWhat was that?â she says.
âI . . . I donât know. We were connected . . . I saw lockers. I thought I was at school,â I say as I stumble. I put my hands on my legs and bend over and a vision fills my headâa girl my age who makes my heart pound.
âLou?â Abby says, and I feel her hand on my back.
I lift my upper torso, too fast, so I wait a few seconds for the dizziness to end. âIâm sorry.â
She stares at me.
âIt really did happen like that with someone . . . Iâm sure it was that girl, B,â I say. âI gotta go, Iâm sure my dadâs waiting.â
âTake care, Louie,â she says as she guides me to the parking lot. âYouâll remember everything, soon. I can tell.â
Dad waves to Abby, and when I get in the car he says, âHowâd it go?â
âIâm going to miss her,â I say.
âSheâs a sweetheart,â Dad says. âWhatâs the strange look on your face about?â
I shake my head. I donât want to get his hopes up. I just want to be alone. He starts the car and we drive home in silence.
Chapter 19
I carry my books in Lukeâs backpack. Dad walks me to the office, stealing glances of my face along the way. I know heâs waiting for me to remember. I act like I donât notice him as we shuffle through a sea of bodies.
âLuke!â A guy yells, and slams into me. âYouâre back.â
I look at Dad, who responds by saying, âThatâs Simon.â
âI donât remember,â I say to Simon, as I continue walking.
âIâll catch you up,â Simon says, trailing behind me.
I donât like the look of this guy. Dark curly hair, shifty eyes, and he is pushy. âCall me Lou,â I say. We stop in front of the office.
âThatâs cool, Lou,â he responds, and then he just stares at me.
I sigh. âOkay, catch me up.â
He looks around and says, âNot here, first bellâs about to ring. See you in second period. And lunch, the oak tree, remember?â Then Simon takes off.
I donât know where the flippinâ oak tree is.
Whatever
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Dad pushes the door open and we wait for the counselor. The office seems strangely familiar, but that might be because itâs just like all the other waiting rooms Iâve waited in over the past three months.
Finally, a man approaches. âHello, Lou. Iâm Henry Sars, your counselor. Come on back, I have a map and a list of your classes.â
Dad and I move in sync. As if itâs a daily eventâthe angry amnesiac son and his faithful father traipsing along behind a counselor, finding our way.
âWhereâs the oak tree?â I ask, just in case I want to meet Simon.
âRight there,â he says as we enter his office and I see this massive tree outside of his window.
âOh.â
Dad smiles. I know heâs been talking to Henry because the guy keeps calling me Lou. But