out when I shake my head no. Dad puts his hand on her back, and I feel like shit again.
As they talk more about the Sage, which I think is Lukeâs high schoolânot LouieâsâI donât listen. Iâve got this gnawing thing picking at my brain and itâs something about B. Now, I want to know about Beatrice Malcolm. Sheâs under my skin, and for some reason my cheeks are burning.
âLouie?â Dad says.
âIâm right here,â I snap. He winces as if Iâd slapped him. âWhat, Dad?â
âTone, Lou, thatâs all.â He shakes his head.
I know heâs thinking that the perfect Lucas Drake would never be so rude to his parents. I canât stand that guy, Luke.
Chapter 18
Abby smiles when she sees me and then she seems blue.
âWhatâs going on?â I ask.
âWeâve spent so much time together. Iâm going to miss you,â she says.
âWhy? Where are you going?â
âYouâre done. Super genius student, Louie.â
I follow her eyes as she scans me from head to toe and then says, âNinety days and you are back!â
âI donât feel . . . back,â I say.
âLetâs call you the improved package. Lou Drakeâmature, debonair, handsome, calm guy.â She hugs me. âWhen do you return to school?â
âI feel like Iâve already been there. Momâs been bringing me books and assignments,â I say.
But I did notice that my writing was slightly different, because I saw some samples in the margins from before
the accident
. My homework was coming back from my teachers with comments like
Excellent! Tremendous! Canât wait to see you
. . .
Abby sits across the table from me. I wonder if Iâll ever see her again.
âHave you seen any of your friends?â she asks.
âNope. My parents wonât let meâworried itâs still too soon. Iâve heard Mom talking on the phone about this big tragedy. Drama, drama, drama,â I say.
She grins. âLou, you said that so well. Two months ago that string of âdramasâ would have been âdamasâ or âtamasâ.â
We laugh. I touch her hand and the moment our skin connects a zap, like electricity, runs through my body. No filter, no time to thinkâthe words fly out of my mouth. âHave I ever kissed your hand?â
âYouâre nuts,â she says with a giggle.
We both freeze and stare at each other.
A memory?
Abby clears her throat and says, âLetâs say you did. Close your eyes and tell me what happens next.â
I shut my eyes and she grabs both of my hands.
My head swirls. The ocean waves crash on the shore and I feel sand under my feet.
âWhat are you seeing,â she whispers.
âThe beach,â I say.
âDescribe it to me,â she says.
âWeâre walking, holding hands, and the waves are chasing us.â
âWhat beach is it?â
âThe one with the pier.â And I feel great. Iâm in the back seat of a car and a younger version of Abby is on top of me.
âWhatâs that grin about?â she says.
I pull my hand away, open my eyes, and jump up in one swift move. My body physically reacts to this vision. I hope she keeps eye contact and doesnât notice.
â Your cheeks are red,â she says.
She stands abruptly too, causing the chair to slide back, making a loud screeching noise against the linoleum, which is horrible, but it helps me to cool down.
âWhew.â I make a low whistle.
âWhat?â she says.
âI think Luke had game.â
âHuh?â
âNever mind, I canât completely piece it together,â I say.
Abby motions for me to sit. She takes her seat and says, âLetâs have our last session now.â
My crush on Abby has only grown. Sheâs tiny with thick, dark hair and bright blue eyes. And the way she puts her tongue on her upper lip when
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